haven't written anything in xanga for a long time (and i am still insisting on not using fb notes to replace xanga...yet), there had been a few times that i think i should leave something but there's just nothing much that i feel worth writing about. sometimes even if there's something to say i'll just talk over the phone. but today i'm really in a perfect mood and happy. former one because of the extremely nice weather, 70s F (gosh see how i'm starting to transform into using F even tho reluctantly)! spent some time in the afternoon sitting on the grass outside in the courtyard to work, seeing people out sunbathing/playing frisbee/doing stupid competitions =P of coz efficiency tends to be 0 but it was just so nice! there're lots of townies visiting and it's just not a day for work! but ultimately what makes me type here again is that last night i happened to be telling a friend here about my lpc roomie from afghanistan. and i realised how long it is since i last saw/chat with susan now that my 1st years are almost graduating. the fact that she is no longer in lpc, and thus i wont get to hear news about her, sort of blurs my memories of her in my mind. after all everything still seemed so unreal to me, the fact that i got to know such a special person, how completely different the 2 worlds we come from are. i just feel like i had been dreaming, that it's been too ideal to be able to meet such a person in my life. and never would i have expected that at all. and today, just now, as i was back in my room and facing my laptop as usual, a msn window pop up and i see her signing in, finally. one of the rare times that i get to see her online and that she's actually there to reply. and we chatted, not long, but long enough for me to confirm that she really is in US studying now, tennessee to be exact. rosanne had told me about this before but no one is so sure of when she's finally there or how she's doing. and the uncertainty just further makes me feel like the whole susan is just a mere existence in my dream. but now i'm just relieved to finally know where she is, how she's doing, and learn that she loves her new school =) and now i finally understand what jma meant by "hating msn all of a sudden, why can't we just talk to ppl face to face". no doubt i still feel a bit unreal because i'm literally just typing and staring at an object, not seeing susan face to face. o well. it's still better than having no way to communicate. ps. i told her about facebook | 
